Kyara Dzenis

Kyara Dzenis

Friday, March 19, 2010

Sleep-Over

Gunars, Skylar and Kassey spent the night with Kyara and I last night. I loved having the family together again. Skylar, Kassey and I slept on a air mattress while Gunars slept with Kyara in her bed. I can't say anyone got great sleep, but I think it will make for a good memory in the future. Our air mattress partially deflated half-way through the night, and since I am the heaviest of the three of us, Kassey and Skylar ended up sleeping on top of me. I would wake up and move everyone around, but as Skylar said, "There is a 'hole' I keep getting rolled in." I guess I am the "hole." :)

Kyara's coloring has not been good today. She is very pale and has a bluish-grey look to her. At times her lips blanch to the same color or an even bluer color than her skin. She goes through stages of breathing easily to struggling where she is only breathing about 4 times a minute. We have been told these are signs that she is getting closer to being at peace. Although noone can tell us exactly how much long we get to have her here, they have said it could be 30 minutes to a couple of days. Either way it is not long.

This process has been extremely difficult. The only thing that keeps me sane is the knowledge that she will be healed and at peace in Heaven with God and that I will see her again. The timeswhen I let doubt enter my mind are the times I break down. It is hard not to question what we cannot see, but that is what faith is. And I remind myself that God is true to His word and I must believe in it. Then I wipe away the tears, give Kyara hugs and kisses, tell her how much I love her, and smile.

8 comments:

Tina from Miami said...

Genie... thank you for sharing these intimate moments with us. I cannot imagine what you and your family are going through... I know that Kyara, her story and your family's story has touched so many hearts and has really made everyone look back at their own lives and really appreciate every waking moment we have together. It is a gift.

We continue to pray for all of you. For your strength and unity.. and for Kyara's peace and comfort.

Much love,
Tina, Carlos & NIco

Lana said...

Genie - your and your families courage is so amazing. To have to go through this and to be willing to share with us is such a testimony. Please know that I am lifting you, Gunars, Skylar, Kyara and Kassey up to the Lord in my prayers constantly.

Anonymous said...

Genie your strength is amazing and a testament to your faith. God is keeping all of you close at this time and is enfolding you in his love. We continue to pray for your strength and Kyara's comfort. Love to all of you. Joanne and Bill

Emily said...

Please know that God will keep you and your family close to Him during this time. Creighton loves Kyara so much and prays for her daily, and we will continue to pray for your family in the days, weeks, and months to come. May God hug you and kiss you like you are doing to your sweet Kyara.

Michelle said...

I have to wipe away tears as I type... Thank you for keeping us updated even though it must be difficult for you to share this news.

I cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling, but am in awe with your faith and the strength that you draw from it. You and your family are an incredible example to live up to.

How good it is that the five of you can spend this time together... and though I'm sure it is difficult for Skylar and Kassey, they will look back and be very grateful that they could spend these precious moments with their sister.

Our prayers continue to pour forth for you! God bless your family.

Michelle

Anonymous said...

How blessed so many of us are for being invited to share in this journey with Kyara.....I have shared her story with many friends this week and we all are praying for peace and comfort. Genie, I have never met you, Kyara, or your beautiful family - yet my heart has been touched and changed by your story. While Kyara's days on this Earth may be numbered, she will be restored wholly in Heaven and I am sure many will be waiting for her with open arms. Please know that so many of us are out there praying for you, your husband, and all 3 of your precious daughters. Peace be with you.

Laura Long said...

You are an amazing mother, christian and wife...we all love you and would do anything to help during this trying time. You are right to continue to pray and believe in God. He will heal her and you will hold her again in heaven. Please know that love you guys!

Anonymous said...

I thank You, God, for allowing me to know and be blessed by Kyara Dzenis' life. Although it was short and filled with many struggles, many ppl were able to learn some of life's valuable lessons through her and her families struggles this past year...Strength, Faith, Perseverence, LOVE! May Kyara continue to teach us of Your love, of our own strength and to love each moment while it lasts.

<3 you all,
Stephanie Rosehart