Happy Mother's Day!!!

To all the mothers out there, Happy Mother's Day!!! It is a day for rejoicing in the beauty of being a mother! Have a wonderful day!

Kyara is doing better with the baclofen. Still not perfect in terms of tone, but better. Legs are a ton better and arms are getting there. She was moving and opening and closing her fingers tonight, so that is good signs. Since she has been bed ridden since Wednesday, Kyara is starting to swell some. Her face is definetely swollen and her feet are tight, like they have a lot of fluid pooling in them. The doctors assure me that when she gets up on Monday and starts moving again, this issue will start to resolve. She is also still crying and fussing a good bit during the day. This can be seen in two ways. Either this is just the way it is, or she is waking up and trying to communicate with us. I pray that it is that she is trying to communicate and this is a phase she is still going through. The doctor said this is his "hope." His hope? What is that suppose to mean? How do I take that? I hope to win the lottery. That doesn't mean my chances are very good. I am going to pray that Kyara is trying to communicate and that this is a step towards her waking up more. I think praying is better than hoping.

I had a nice dinner at my parents' house tonight with my brothers and their families, my parents, and my Nannie and Papa (Bunny's mom and dad). It was once again a very bittersweet time for me. I loved seeing all the cousins out playing together, then would cry realizing that one cousin was missing. Gunars was not eating with us, Kyara was not there, and so the night felt wrong to me. I know that Skylar had a good time, though. She told me last night that she is sometimes very lonely. Can I blame her? She said she can't wait for Kyara to come home so she will have someone to play with. Oh, my heart sank. I tried to explain that Kyara is still recovering and that when she comes home, she is not going to be like she used to be. How do you explain to a 6 year old? I don't know. I have had a tough weekend at home. Gunars has been spending the nights at the hospital and I just miss him so much. Although we see each other a little here, a little there, it is not enough.

Ok, enough complaining. Get it together, girl! There is much to be thankful for. I have a wonderful husband, 2 healthy, happy girls, Kyara is responding to the baclofen better each day, I have the love and support of my family and friends. God is watching over us, and leading us towards brighter days.